Thursday, May 30, 2013

Atlantis Found

Dear Readers,
I usually only post what I have written or channeled, but the below article so important that I wanted share it.

Giant Sphinx Discovered Among Bermuda Triangle Pyramids
Before It’s News -Perhaps overshadowing the discoveries of the tomb of King Tut and Troy is the discovery of Atlantis. Now two bold scientists, Paul Weinzweig and Pauline Zalitzki, say they have found it. They discovered the ruins of the ancient city submerged off the coast of Cuba. In the distant past the region was dry land, but now only the island of Cuba remains above water. The ancient city is 600 feet below the ocean and the team of researchers led by Zalitzki Weinzweig is convinced that it is Atlantis, the city lost by more than 10,000 years.

Two scientists, Paul Weinzweig and Pauline Zalitzki, working off the coast of Cuba in a submersible robot, have confirmed that there is a huge city on the ocean floor. The site of the ancient city – including several sphinxes and at least four giant pyramids and other structures – is surprisingly within the boundaries of the legendary Bermuda Triangle.

According to a report from Terra Forming Terra Arclein, Cuban Subsea Pyramid Complex, the evidence suggests that the city was flooded simultaneously with the rising waters and land subsidence in the sea. This corresponds exactly to the legend of Atlantis. The disaster could have occurred at the end of the last Ice Age. As the Arctic ice sheet melted catastrophically causing the sea level to rise rapidly around the world, especially affecting the Northern Hemisphere. The coastlines changed; land was lost, islands (including the island continent) disappeared completely. At end of the last ice age sea level were lower than today’s levels of nearly 122 meters. Theoretically, any technology then or now, could have saved Atlantis from its watery grave. The evidence that the earth, in what is now the Caribbean, also sank in the sea seems pretty certain.

Arclein observes: “when large portions of the Mid-Atlantic Ridge also decreased including Lyones and islands and land mass around the Azores. Even if this has not happened, this collapse was big enough. “This would have produced an orthogonal pressure forcing the collapse of East or West. Since the cord between Cuba and Yucatan is the natural point of weakness between the subsidence of the basin subsidence Gulf and Caribbean basin, naturally gone deep. The driver of this was the hydrostatic changes caused by both the original cortical change 12,900 years ago I called the Pleistocene Nonconformity and slowly lift the basin of Hudson Bay prompted by the end of the Ice Age.

Fernandez visits with Pauline Zalitzki regarding Atlantis
Cuban Missile Crisis Halts ResearchAccording to journalist Luis Mariano Fernandez the city was first discovered decades ago, but all access to her was arrested during and after the Missile Crisis. “The U.S.government discovered the alleged place during the Missile Crisis Cuba in the sixties, nuclear submarines cruising structures found (in the deep sea) with a pyramid in the Gulf. Immediately shut down the site and took control of it and objects, so that will not reach the hands of the Russians. “The scientific team of experts from the ocean, oceanographers and archaeologists found ruins of ancient buildings of 183 meters below the ocean. They say the city is Atlántida (Atlantis).

The evidence that the island of Cuba is the remnant of a once mighty culture is supported by the discovery of the island Zalitzki containing symbols and pictograms extremely old identical to those observed in the structures submarines. Utilizing submersibles, they discovered structures, including pyramids, similar (even higher than) the pyramids in Giza, Egypt. They believe that the pyramids of Atlantis are built with stones of several hundred tons. The ancient city also has magnificent sphinxes and “stones which are arranged like Stonehenge, and a written language engraved in stones,” advises Fernandez . Another giant pyramid topped with what looks like a crystal was discovered by divers in the Bermuda triangle [see: Pyramids of Glass Submerged in Bermuda Triangle]

A Discovery That Rewrites History
Could this discovery change the vision of the history of mankind? Yes, it could change everything.
Fernandez writes, “It has been confirmed that the stones were cut, carved and polished to make them fit and form larger structures. In the strange inscriptions, some of them similar to Egyptian hieroglyphics, very little is known, except that they are very abundant and are found in almost all parts of the field. They have also appeared symbols and drawings whose meaning is unknown.

The exploration of Atlantis, called Project Exploramar, is expanding to discover more of the mysteries of the mega-ciudad.Hablando with a scientist about the possibility that the ruins are, in fact, the Atlantis, FernanEdez reports that the expert answered :
“… In today’s Yucatan cultures may even Aborigines are those places perhaps the Olmecs or some very primitive civilization of Yucatan, the northern part of Central America – as they originated on an island that sank by cataclysm. This island is called Atlanticú. “
It also adapts to the stories about the sudden disappearance of Atlantis wonderfully.

Atlanticú. Atlantis. Aboriginal natives still call in its history. The Olmecs and other native peoples all have primary morphology marking the arrival of this continent. This means coming from the direction of Cuba, and had to occur in a very large earthquake where their land sank. Morphologies indicate that they belong to three families who were saved. One of these families came to the coast of Veracruz, which are supposedly the Olmec. Others came to Central America and traveled to the Pacific coast, and these families created the civilization of the Americas as we know it today, because they distributed all their knowledge. When anthropologists saw these underwater carvings, stone monoliths, some symbols and inscriptions, they were identified with Olmec motifs. They were very surprised.

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Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Alchemy Of Creation Part 2 -- Transmutation of Matter

The Alchemy of Creation Part 2

Transmutation of Matter
By the Arcturians

To transmute your physical form, it is best that you release your attachment to human individuality and think of yourself as a planetary being. For humans to ascend via their physical bodies transmuting into the fifth dimension rather than "dying" as was normal before this great era, you will need the assistance of Earth. At the same time, in order for Earth to ascend without the extinction of Her physical form, She needs human assistance.

Hence dear humans and Galactics/Celestials in human form, you will need to expand your personal consciousness into planetary consciousness. In this manner, there is no sense of personal sacrifice or fear. There is only the great unity of person and planet ascending as ONE Being. Furthermore, we request that those of you who have awakened to your Multidimensional SELF no longer hold back your process. Others have chosen the Mission of working with the beginners.

Those of you who are merged with your Multidimensional SELF are more ready than you may think. Additionally, the higher light is allowing you to expand your consciousness into higher and higher expression of SELF. At the same time, your consciousness is expanding deeper and deeper into your atomic, subatomic and quantum levels of consciousness. In other words, you are not just raising your consciousness. You are expanding your consciousness far beyond physical Earth, as well as deep into the matrix of Earth.

As your consciousness expands, so do your perceptions. Also, when you expand your perceptions, you can change your gene activity. When you choose to believe that your higher perceptions are “real” you increase your perceptual field to the frequencies the fourth and fifth dimensions. This extended perceptual field activates the neural activity of your 97% multidimensional DNA. This multidimensional DNA is linked to your higher expressions of SELF, as well each cell of your body.

Your earth vessel is an intelligent biological earth ship, just as our Starships are biological. The current container for your consciousness is just one of myriad containers on myriad dimensions and parallel and/or alternate realities. You have decided to take command of your current personal earth ship, which becomes a fourth-dimensional etheric ship when you are “sleeping” and can expand into the higher dimensions during meditation.

Your “dominant state of consciousness” is the state of consciousness that directs your daily life and constant perceptions. This state of consciousness is usually somewhere between your highest frequency consciousness achievable during deepest meditation and the frequency of consciousness that is responsible for directing you to react, rather than interact. In other words, it is midway between your highest and lowest states of consciousness.

Once you realize that the act of reaction determines the point of perception that identifies your dominant state of consciousness you will become conscious of that to which you chose to react. In other words, the perception to which you choose to react creates your dominant point of perception within that NOW. You have many different dominant state of consciousness throughout your day depending upon the perceptions to which you react, respond, interact, or ignore.

Just as your chakras are aligned to different frequencies, every state of consciousness has a frequency of perception. These perceptions are the sum-total of the frequency of reality you have chosen by your placing your attention on, reacting, responding or interacting with that specific version/frequency of reality. Every reality has many versions, and each version is different because it resonates to a higher or lower frequency.

There are myriad channels on your “TV of 3D Life.” The channel on which you choose to place your attention determines your state of consciousness within that NOW. We say “that NOW” as to us all reality exists within the HERE of the NOW. There is no coming or going in the HERE NOW. We ARE. We resonate, we fluctuate, and most wonderfully we create.

We Arcturians are here to assist you in our co-creation of the Arcturian Corridor. We have spoken often of this Corridor. However, since you, our ascending ones, are now moving into a higher state of consciousness you can perceive higher frequency components of our message that were once beyond your power of perception. Hence, our (human and Arcturian) Corridor is expanding along with your perceptions.
(Journey Through the Arcturian Corridor 1 through 4)

To further assist Gaia we Arcturians are in direct communication with many multidimensional beings presently wearing an earth vessel. When we communicate we speak in Light Language. Light Language resonates beyond time, polarity, limitation separation or fear. Since you must be free of fear in order to receive our messages, some are unable to perceive us. However, the higher light is continually expanding your perceptions and filling you with unconditional love (the antidote for fear). Hence, more and more of those wearing earth vessels are able to receive Light Language messages from the higher dimensions.

You can receive these messages through your fourth dimensional night body, or more consciously via meditations, channeling, or other creative endeavors. You are able to receive these higher dimensional messages because your consciousness is expanding into the consciousness of your higher expressions of SELF, as well as into your cellular consciousness. Through your cellular consciousness you will begin to consciously experience the cellular, atomic and sub-atomic level of your grounded earth vessel.

At this point, you will begin to commune with your molecular self by exploring and healing old issues and situations from your past that tell you that you are NOT the Captain of your earth vessel.  These limiting messages are at the core of third dimensional thinking. When you enter your unconscious to allow your past to heal your present, you confuse your third dimensional thinking.

Third dimensional thinking is also based on the present that appears to be outside of you. Therefore, whenever you go inside to ponder that past, which is hidden deep inside your subconscious, it further confuses your third dimensional thinking. Then, as you give credence to the lessons to be found within your past, a door opens to your past lives. These past lives are introductions to your perceiving yourself from beyond the barrier of time. Hence, your attachment to third dimensional thinking is further loosened.

The first “past lives,” you choose to ponder will likely be those with unfinished business that you brought into this incarnation to finish. Hence, even your human history is beyond time, as it is stored in your unconscious mind. Once you release time to heal and complete unfinished lives, you gain the courage and wisdom to remember the past lives in which you completed you’re chosen mission and gained great insight and enlightenment.

The acknowledgement of these lives activates the memory of your Multidimensional SELF. Very often your unconscious mind is the archive for old memories that you could not resolve when they occurred in that timeline. However, with the wisdom, power and love of your Multidimensional SELF you have the ability to bring that experience into its conclusion. We refer to your unconscious mind as the archive for experiences from your past that you are too immature to process.

On the other hand, we refer to your subconscious mind as a composite of everything you have ever perceived, as well as any information your mind collects that cannot be consciously processed or acknowledged. Your conscious mind cannot always absorb all available information, as it would create an information overload. Therefore, the subconscious mind stores this information where it can be retrieved by the conscious mind when it needs to defend itself for survival or for higher cognitive purposes.

However, hidden deep inside your unconscious and subconscious is your Divine Child who carries the “instruction manual” for your current embodiment. These instructions are in Light Language sent only to you. Hence, the process of deciphering this Light Language requires that you first connect with higher expressions of your SELF before you look deep into your unconscious and subconscious to find your Divine Child who remembers everything!

When you look HI UP into your higher SELF while you simultaneously look DEEP DOWN into your unconscious and subconscious mind you can experience unconditional love and human emotion within the NOW. When you can close these polarities of spirit and matter with the power of your multidimensional perception, you enter the NOW of the ONE as you merge your Divine Child with your Higher Expression of SELF.

Experiencing your Alpha, Divine Child and Omega, Higher SELF confuses your 3Dconsciousness enough that you can jump out of time. Then the past of your unconscious and subconscious can no longer interfere with your present on 3D Earth. When you are fully merged with your NOW, you are able to perceive any third-dimensional thought-forms from your past as lessons that have guided you into your present. From this point of perception, you can easily liberate these injuries from your past with the power of unconditional love and by perceiving them as cherished teachers.

We see that all of you, our Multidimensional Masters, are preparing to expand your consciousness into the next frequency of reality. Before this NOW, you did not have that option, as the frequency of your reality was too low and infiltrated with fear. Because of the darkness of that reality and the restrictions that it placed on your consciousness, you could not believe that your higher perceptions were “real.”

Furthermore, you could not perceive your highest and lowest resonance of your Multidimensional SELF, as this process can only occur within the safety of unconditional love, which was rarely present on your reality within the last 2000 years. Thus, unconditional love was forgotten and re-written into a 3D format of conditional love. In this manner, the concept of love lost its true meaning. 

However, now with your 97% DNA coming on line you are able to preview you highest self and your super-subconscious at the same time. This expansion of perception is possible because of your expansion of consciousness. Simultaneously, your expansion of consciousness is possible because of your expanded perception. Also, the activation of your multidimensional DNA allows you to believe it is possible to perceive higher dimensions of reality.

It may appear that many humans are still asleep. However, they are beginning to consistently awaken due to the activation of the 97%DNA. This DNA expands your perceptions beyond the confines of time, space, separation and limitation. Simultaneously, as you expand your consciousness beyond the 3D matrix of time, space, polarity, separation and limitation this DNA is activated.

Once your multidimensional DNA is fully activated the process of transmutation of matter advances exponentially. The feedback loop of the higher light having a frequency of matter that can contain it, while multidimensional DNA goes about the process of creating a vessel that can contain even higher frequencies of light, begins a process of transmutations of third dimensional matter into multidimensional matter.

Of course, the multidimensional DNA was always within your earth vessel as a latent reminder of your potential to return to your true multidimensional nature. However, this potential needed to be activated by the higher frequencies such as photons charged with particles of infrared, ultraviolet and gamma rays. These frequencies of light, as well as frequencies still unknown or named to your world, make up the higher light that is streaming into your world.

Humans have been doing some important research about the role of DNA on the evolution of the human species. Below is a short summary of this research:

In 1990, a group of Russian physicists, molecular biologists, biophysicists, geneticists, embryologists and linguists began a study of this “junk” DNA. Dr. Peter Gariaev PhD who is a Biophysicist and Molecular Biologist directed this research project. These scientists irradiated DNA samples with laser light. On screen, a typical wave pattern was formed. When they removed the DNA sample, the wave pattern did not disappear, it remained.

Many controlled experiments showed that the pattern continued to come from the removed sample, whose energy field apparently remained by itself. This effect is now called phantom DNA effect. It is surmised that energy from outside of space and time still flows through the activated wormholes after the DNA was removed.

They determined that this DNA is also a complex, biological, micro-computer chip that communicates with its environment. Dr. Gariaev found that the basic structure of these DNA alkaline pairs is the same as that of human language. Thus, they can be influenced and reprogrammed solely by the thought waves in our environment. Dr. Gariaev and Dr. Poponin also discovered that there is a multidimensional field structure surrounds our DNA chain.

Other studies were done by Dr. Bruce Lipton, Ph.D. who is an internationally recognized Cellular Biologist and a pioneer in a new field called Epigenics. In his book, titled The Biology of Belief, Dr. Lipton writes about his discovery that evolution is, in fact, driven by consciousness.  The caterpillar and the butterfly have the exact same DNA.  They are the exact same organism.  But they are responding to a different frequency.

Dr. Lipton has discovered that it is not genes that control life at the cellular level. It is the mind’s perception of its environment.  He coined the term “Spontaneous Evolution” because he has discovered that our DNA scans our environment for frequencies that are relevant to our existence, changes its structure, and then sends messages to reshape it self accordingly.

As we stated earlier in our message, many of you are ready to be co-creators of “our” Arcturian Corridor. The Corridor is not a place; it is an inter-dimensional corridor in which beings, as they are not all human, on the verge of ascension can gather to connect, learn and remember the process of transmutation.

All of you who are on the cusp of this ascension wave have had at least one experience of ascension. However, in most of these experiences you released your consciousness from your third-dimensional form and soared into higher dimensions. These ascensions were transmutations of consciousness. In this ascension, you are not only transmuting your consciousness, but your physical AND your planetary body as well.

Thus, it is vital that you merge with your planetary consciousness so that you and Gaia can act as a team. Many of you have already gathered within the Arcturian Corridor to learn about inter-dimensional travel. Now, you will be learning about transmutation of your personal and planetary body. As you awaken your cellular consciousness, you will be able to deeply merge with Gaia, as well as assist us to implant our Corridor into the body of ascending Earth.

Your great, Multidimensional SELF is about to make a full appearance in your daily life. As you begin to perceive life from a higher perspective, you will send signals to your DNA that it is “time to enter your cocoon” and begin your transmutation. However, you, the ascending ones on Earth, will not be able to ONLY focus totally on your process of transmutation.

In fact, you will, and are now, called upon to perform your daily tasks while you are in the process of totally restructuring your thoughts, emotions, consciousness, DNA and earth vessel. Fortunately, you will be able to call upon us, as well as your own higher expressions of SELF.
We shall return with more information,
The Arcturians

Monday, May 27, 2013


May 27, 2013

The Work Begins – Part 2

I think I have met someone. He is blond and has piercing blue eyes. As soon as our eyes met, we seemed to have an instant connection. He even looked familiar, but maybe that was because of the dreams I had about being on a Spaceship. I actually met him while standing in line at a grocery store.

I had been so depressed that I had not gone to the store for a long time. Therefore, I had a huge order. This man, Jason is his name, was behind me in line and only had a few things; so I let him go ahead of me. Fortunately, the line was so long that we had a few minutes to talk. Then, when I got to my car he was parked right next to me. I mean, what are the odds of that happening? Jason said hello, almost like he had been waiting for me, and helped me load up my groceries.

When the car was loaded he asked if I would like to get some coffee. I started to say no because my ice cream would melt, then laughed at my self. I could get more ice cream, but I may never see this wonderful man again. However, I did see him again. In fact, we have gotten together or talked every day since we met just two weeks ago. We are such a great match that it feels like we have known each other forever.

It is interesting how love is the best cure for depression, as I have not had any since Jason and I met. Oh, did I actually say the word "love." I don't want to jinx this relationship, but somehow I just know that we are meant to be together.

I have over lit humans before, but I had not considered merging with a lower frequency of my SELF in the same manner as the Arcturian had merged with me. I had been so engulfed in my wonderful lessons regarding the higher expressions of my Multidimensional SELF that I had not considered the concept of me being a higher expression to a lower frequency of my SELF.

Since my Mytre self resonates beyond the confines of time, it was quite simple for me to preview my third dimensional expressions on Earth during the 2013 timeline. I found that I had ten physical expressions of my Multidimensional SELF on that timeline.

Five were women and three of the men were the wrong age, married or unwilling to connect with me, even in their dream body. This left two men who were unconsciously open to my connection. However, one of them lived far away from Sandy and was quite content with his life. Jason lived in a different city than Sandy, but he was interested in a job in her area and desperately wanted to change his life. Hence, he was my best choice.

Therefore, Jason became the physical expression of my Multidimensional SELF with whom I would merge. Since Sandy is one of Mytria's expressions of SELF in that physical timeline and Jason was one of my 3D expressions, falling in love with each other would be more like recognition. Sandy was in great need of love and support since Mytria had left and would be open to meeting a new friend, but first I had to merge with Jason.

Mytria seemed to have just "walked into" Sandy, but I am sure it was more complicated than that. Also, Mytria had been a healer while she was a Keeper of the Violet Flame on our Homeworld. I imagine that that experience made is easier for her to merge with another person. On the other hand, I had been a warrior and had been taught to keep strict boundaries between my self and others. However, I did have the experience of merging with a higher expression of my SELF, the Arcturian, but I had never merged with a lower expression of my SELF.

I called out to the Arcturian, but Its lack of response meant that I had to do this on my own. Since the Arcturian always taught by example, I assumed that It wanted me to use my experience of merging with It as a lesson that I received within the timeless NOW. Therefore, I began by remembering how it felt to have the consciousness of the Arcturian surrounding me and infusing me with unconditional love.

Therefore, I filled my essence with unconditional love and entered Jason’s aura. Instantly, I could fill the unconditional love moving through both of our forms. This unconditional love allowed us to relax into the experience of a unique sensation free of fear or even question.

Yes, I would need to "take some time" to build a relationship with Jason, just as the Arcturian had done with me. I began our communications while he was in his night body. Night after night, I merged with his astral body while we traveled to our Scout Ship, which was hovering just beyond Earth's atmosphere. Then, I took him to the Mothership, which made the greatest impression on him. I was surprised how quickly he became bonded with me.

In fact, since Jason was so receptive to my teachings and suggestions, I decided to only merge with his fourth dimensional astral body. In this manner, I might be able to better protect myself from the myriad illusions and fear-based emotions of physical Earth during that timeline. After about three months of earth time I expanded my essence into Jason's astral form. He did not appear to remember his “dreams” of visiting the Starships or even our nightly conversation. However, he began to greatly change his life.

He started doing yoga and became very attracted to meditation. He quit the job he hated and moved to his present location (which is very close to Sandy) to take the job with a company that has been pursuing him for some time. The pay is quite a bit less, but the work is far more creative.

Meanwhile, Sandy has been trying to move beyond her depression. She has been going outside more and taking long walks. In fact, her trip to the grocery store was because she had decided to stop eating junk food and cook herself some healthy meals. It appears that Mytria made more of an impact on Sandy than she thought.

It is a very interesting experience for me to inhabit even a fourth dimensional form. I can completely understand how Mytria got lost in a physical form, as the illusions there are quite addictive. The third dimensional form is incredibly dense and must be fed on a regular basis.  Since I have merged with Jason's aura I have come to fully understand why he became trapped in a job he hated in a location he did not like. The "fear for survival" is so extreme in the third dimension that it reminds me of my years fighting in the Galactic Wars.

I have so much more respect for Earth humans than I ever did before. I am wearing a fourth dimensional form while I am simultaneously aware of my higher expression and still feel uncomfortable. I cringe to think how difficult it must be for the humans who have not remembered their higher expression. As I say that, I realize why I have remained only in Jason's aura. I must NOT become lost in this illusion as Mytria did. However, Mytria did free herself, even though she forgot some of important factors of inter-dimensional travel such as creating a firm grounding point.

Deciding to remain in this frequency of Jason's earth vessel is a good idea. While my primary attachment to Jason is through his fourth dimensional aura, I can better remember my true SELF. I learned from Mytria that fully merging with a third dimensional body can make it very difficult to remember your Multidimensional SELF.

From this fourth dimensional connection with Jason, I am able to interface with him in a very personal way. Also, since Jason met Mytria's grounded expression of Sandy I have been experiencing falling in love with Mytria's essence all over again. It is quite a wonderful feeling.

Almon and I settled into our old friendship. Even though he is a parallel expression of Mytre, he has created new components of that essence that are quite different from Mytre. I am enjoying being with Almon again, but it also makes me miss Mytre. I was unable to communicate with Mytre once I became lost in the human vessel of Sandy, and it feels like we have been apart too long. However, I am regaining my connection with Mytre, as well as with Sandy. Actually, I am feeling that something very wonderful is occurring in her life. In fact, it feels like she is falling in love.

At the same time, I feel like Mytre is with Sandy, but not as his true SELF. Yes, as I tune into my dear Mytre, I realize that he too has entered an earth vessel on the same timeline as I did. No, wait, he did not totally enter it. Yes, I think he is actually in the fourth dimensional aura of that person, a man. Oh, my, the man is with Sandy, and they are falling in love. Mytre, my love, my SELF, you have created a beacon of love to guide me back to where I began this journey.

I wonder if I dare bi-locate there, as I must finish what Almon and I began? No, not yet. I need to regain more of my multidimensional memory. Fortunately, if I can FEEL Mytre, then I am sure that he can feel me. Nonetheless, as soon as I am totally healed I will find a way to directly communicate with him. Perhaps, I can call upon the Arcturian to assist us?  I will do that soon.

For now, I am content in knowing that Mytre is assisting me. In fact, it may well be that this situation is within our divine plan. After all, there are no mistakes or accidents, only unexpected occurrences.

I have decided to keep a journal of this journey I have begun. Just a few months ago I was in a big city with traffic and smog doing a job that I hated but was afraid to leave. In fact, I realize now that I was afraid of a lot of things. To be honest with my self, I was suffering from chronic anxiety. Every day I had to struggle to wake up and face the traffic I hated, a job that left me brain dead and friends that could only have fun when they were half, or fully, drunk.

I am not sure how I got the courage to finally take this new, wonderful, job and move to this calm town that is surrounded by nature. I also started hiking and even doing yoga. My friends from my former life would laugh at me if they knew that I was actually meditating. If I ever tried to tell them about the dreams I have been having, they would have laughed me out of the bar. I don't even know where a bar is here, and I left my TV at my former apartment.

I just need to be quiet inside myself for a while. Also, my new job takes a lot of homework while I learn all these new graphic programs on my new computer that they, actually, gave me. My old job never gave me anything except criticism. Of course, they could probably tell that I hated it there. I could see the relief in their eyes when I quit. My friends" just slapped me on the back and said, "Oh, you'll be back soon." Thanks for the support guys.

NO, I am not going to be a martyr anymore. I chose them to be my friends, and I chose to stay in the job that I hated. Why did I make those choices? I have to admit that I was just afraid of change, any change. I am not sure where I got the courage to finally change my life, but my courage continues.

In fact, I met someone! I was standing in line behind her in the grocery store and felt an instant attraction to her. She had a huge cartful of food and told me to go ahead of her. A nice girl! I have not met any nice people in a long time. There I go again with the martyr thing. I can now admit that I was so lost in my own fear that I started to wear a "kick me” sign. Then I wondered why I was such a victim. No more. I got my courage back, and I am keeping it.

I even talked with Sandy, that is her name, while we were in the line. Then I had the courage to hang out by my car to see her when she left the store. How could it be that we were actually parked right next to each other? That has to be a sign. 

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